Happy New Year!


Two days ago I sat here deeply depressed and paralyzed by fear and worry. Today the sun is shining again and I am filled with the hope and wonder of life again. Praise God!!!!!!

I have just registered for school. I am thinking of going for a degree in computer information technology (or as close as the community college here can give me) then going for a networking certificate. I am so nervous about going back to school but also very excited.

The decision to go back to school was made only two days ago but this is something that I have been thinking about for a while. The fact that everything came together so quickly makes me feel as if God is pushing me in this direction. I have read that God uses the problems we face to motivate us -- not only to seek Him but to seek out new paths for our lives. Two days ago I felt as if my back was against a wall .. like I was caught in a trap that I could not escape from. Today I feel as if I have been lifted out of a pit and set down on a brightly lit road. I now have a feeling that, no matter what happens, God will see me through.

I still have to apply for grants to pay for books and to help with the costs of living since I will be losing a lot of work due to school but I am certain that even if these grants aren't given to me, God will still see me through.

Two days ago I wrote about being the "Scrooge of New Year's Eve" and made a remark that maybe the spirits of New Year's Eve might pay me a visit to try to change my life. Well, maybe the New Year's Eve spirits didn't visit me but I honestly believe the Holy Spirit did. New Year's Eve I felt horrible - as if the world were falling apart - but now, two days later, I feel alive again. I do feel God's presence in my life again and I am humbly grateful. I pray that I feel God's presence in my life every day. I thank the Lord for all He has done for me.

Happy New Year to everyone! And may the spirit of the New Year fill your hearts and give you the hope of a new beginning each day of your lives!!


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