Nothing In This World
Is Forever....

One day brings back memories of a lifetime... I guess maybe I haven't really thought about it as much as I should ... I still find myself wanting to go back in time. It's so hard to live in a life where there is no rewind button... no way of changing things .. no way of returning to the time that has been lost.

I still find myself asking why... why did it all have to change? It feels like things are always being taken away from me... I find myself almost wanting to throw away the things that have replaced the things that have been lost.. it doesn't matter if what I have now is better than what I had before. I still want to go back.. I want to scream.. to tell the world that it's not fair... to even tell God that this isn't fair.

Some people thing it's wrong to let God know that they're angry. But I don't agree with that.. I mean, God knows when a person is angry.. why try to lie to Him? Sometimes I do feel angry at God for the changes that are forced upon my life... sometimes I don't think this whole thing is fair. Even when I see the good that has come from the changes.. I find myself wanting to go back.. back to a place where the world felt safer ... back to a place where the world wasn't so confusing. There was a time when everything was taken care of and the only thing left was to enjoy it .. or take it for granted.

Maybe it's really me that I'm mad at. I guess it's easy to take the things one has for granted and not really try to move forward... until forced out of the safety and into the cold realization that nothing is safe and anything can be taken away from me at anytime. Nothing in this world is safe ... nothing in this world is forever ... anything in this world can be lost at any given moment. It's enough to make a person angry .. or afraid....

I'm just grateful there is Someone that will always be there... no matter what happens.. no matter how angry I am... no matter how scared I am... there is One that will always be there ... One that will never turn away from me ... One who will always forgive... and One that can never be taken away from me no matter what...

Thank-you God




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